I’m well aware I’m not going to be famous on TV in the immediate future – that’s never been a goal for me. I know I’m also not going to be “Internet Famous” either. I don’t have the follow through to make it happen.
All I want is just a small following of people that every now and then tell me, “Hey, I really like what you’re doing. Keep it up!” To that end I always have something swirling in my head to create something for the cultural landscape online.
All I know is what I don’t want to do: a recap show or a review show where I spend my time watching a TV show (new or old) and talk about it. I would much rather talk about that kind of thing with family and friends, and I don’t think my “takes” are interesting enough to put them online en masse.
What I want to do is offer up something that is more or less unique, find a way to contribute that hasn’t been done before (or at least hasn’t been done often). That’s one of the reasons I put Alternative Airwaves together. So I look to archive.org to see if there’s anything interesting I can use there.
Bottom line – I like to produce things, but I don’t know what I like producing. I rely too much on a personal filter that says, “Nope, that’s not worth completing, don’t bother starting this project”. Somehow Alternative Airwaves gets through that filter, I think because it’s something I just do.
Everything else – I just leave festering for too long and it doesn’t make it past the filter. I think that’s my new writing goal for 2019: create something and just put it out there. The point is no longer about whether it’s good enough or people like it, the point is picking a project (or multiple projects) and finishing it.