Wow! It’s been a while. I dismantled my studio, cleaned it up, and put it back together again since the last episode. I was going to record two today (Slow Reader + Alternative Airwaves) but I opted for just The Slow Reader. I might do Alternative Airwaves later this week.
I like the way this turned out; I’m pretty much resigned to not worrying about the length of the podcast. It’s going to be a sub-10 minute show. There’s a niche for that and I’m filling it.
I just finished (yesterday) typing out my script/outline for the final podcast episode about The Saturday Night Ghost Club; I still need to go back over it and give it a little polish, but I’m happy with it in general. I wasn’t sure how I wanted to structure the episode, but all of a sudden I got an idea yesterday afternoon and just got going.
In a perfect world I would have had this done and published as of August 8th, but I didn’t want to publish something sub-par. I’m not sure when I’ll get this episode done, but I think it will be good when I finish it.
Words from Stephen Gates, a creative design leader and host of The Crazy One podcast. The meaning behind that is you need to practice confidence – it’s not an inherent trait that people either have or don’t have. A recent podcast episode came out, which included that line, but also talked about some of the common fears in the workplace.
The “fear of being judged” specifically inspired me to do some thinking; this is something I hold in the back of my head all the time. I don’t share my work as widely as I could, because I (secretly) don’t want my friends and co-workers to see it and jusge me for it. I feel like my stuff isn’t good enough for them (some impostor syndrome seeping in here).
And occasionally, I have “oh shit” moments when I realize my co-workers see what I put online. Are they reading and listening to what I’m putting out there? Thankfully, the team I manage seems to have no clue of my online presence. Just the same, I think this is one of the reasons why I find it hard to share my work online.
However, I know that I’m not alone, and that’s one way in which this podcast episode helped me to understand. Clearly this episode wasn’t directed at me, it was directed at people like me. In that sense, things like this help. And hearing from people with more success than I do share that they have the same feelings (impostor syndrome, fear of being judged, etc.), that’s also immensely helpful.
I’m not sure if I said what I set out to say in this piece, but I think it adequately gets across why I don’t put more effort into some of the things I do online.
This is not new that I keep posting about weight loss, as it’s something I’m working at – constantly. I recently completed a review of my weight data from 2013 to current day, and it disappoints me to learn that while I lost 40+ pounds by the end of 2014, I gained it all back by 2018.
At my lowest I hit 228 pounds (November 2014); that was from a starting number of 272 (February 2013). Today, August 6 2019, I’m still at 272. I knew that I was climbing back up on the scale over the past 3 years, but seeing it laid out in a spreadsheet made it pretty painfully obvious.
Clearly, I’ve talked a lot about my strategies for weight loss on this blog. Just as clearly, my strategies have not worked. I can’t remember exactly what I did when I lost the weight 5 years ago, but I at least know that it was a combination of diet (via MyFitnessPal) and going to the gym. I still have a gym membership, I just haven’t gone in several months – but it’s not like I’m inactive, it’s just not practical to go to the gym in Summer months when there’s so much to do outdoors.
5 years ago I wasn’t armed with the knowledge of CICO, though, so I feel like this time around it should be a bit simpler to approach. Of course that’s the thinking that I’ve been trapped in for a while, now. But since giving myself this kick in the pants, I’ve outlined a new plan.
Reduce daily calorie goal to aim for a 2 lb / week loss (so for right now, ~1555 calories per day)
Get back to the gym, 3 times a week. Doesn’t matter which days, and need to be there at least 30 minutes per session (if it’s a short session, it has to be all cardio).
I’ll allow myself to eat back maximum 50% of my exercise calories – since they are not accurately tracked, anyway.
Given this plan, I should be at 232 pounds by January 2020 at the latest. I anticipate setbacks, that’s a given. So buffer zone…end of January 2020 to shed 40 pounds. But my “real” goal is to try to hit that number by December 22 2019.
I’m not going to finish at 40 pounds, though. According to most sources, a healthy weight for me should be 148-153 pounds. That seems a bit extreme so probably my next goal after 40 pounds is to get down to 200. That was the original goal, back in 2014. I just never got there.
Got a new episode out! On time! I recorded it in Halifax while on vacation, so the sound quality is slightly off from what I usually cobble together.
I’m very excited to start a new book! This wasn’t entirely intended (influenced only by when I received the book from the library), but The Saturday Night Ghost Club (by Craig Davidson) starts today with episodes 1-4, right when most other people are watching Stranger Things 3 (I’ve only seen the first season + the first episode of season 2 so far). This is a spooky book, and really good so far. So dive in with me!
I’m going to keep this short because I didn’t prepare ahead of time (oops). Check it out today and let me know your theories!
This bonus episode contains a full read of “Murder and Suicide, Respecively” by Ryan North, a story from the first Machine of Death short story collection! Buy the book from Amazon if you haven’t ever read it before. Get in touch with me on Twitter to discuss theories about this story!
I fooled around a little with the sound in the last two episodes. I’ll be honest, I didn’t like the way the sound turned out in chapters 20-32. So I made some changes. I will listen back and figure out whether or not I go back to how I recorded it in the last few episodes. I think I like it better.
Plenty of new information revealed in these chapters, including the cause of The Fayz! Or part of the cause. This is the penultimate episode for Gone coverage, with chapters 39 – Final coming in 2 weeks’ time.
I haven’t even completed the pre-production on the final episode for “Gone” (catch up on the book by following the Podcasts category on the blog) and I’m already excited for it. I’m excited for me, and I’m excited to have people listen to it. Because I think it’s going to be the best one yet (for this book). I’ve been really up & down with my own personal reaction to the podcast and how I’ve produced it, but I’ve been taking in everything I’ve done for it so far and internalized how I want to make the podcast sound better.
I’m not going to release any details – because there’s still two more episodes for the book left (tomorrow, and 14 days from now); but I will give you a little bit of behind the scenes to chew on.
This is a new approach to podcasting for me; I usually just take notes and improvise as I go on the mic, because I don’t like working with a script. While this isn’t exactly a script, and I deviate from what I write from time-to-time, I figured that doing a solo show needed a bit more structure and that doing it unscripted would be harder.
Indeed, even partially scripting it is more difficult than I thought (for example, for an episode I thought would definitely be longer than 15 minutes, I came in under 10). But I’m having a good time doing it. As I said to Vanessa last night, I’m doing a lot of the work for the podcast in small chunks, because I don’t want to burn myself out and have it actually feel like work.
As I mentioned earlier, I’ve been trying to make the podcast sound better as I continue through the books and reading that I’m doing. It bugs me a little bit that most of my episodes are still quite short – 10 minutes or less. I feel like I’m not putting as much effort as I could be into the episodes, so that’s mainly why it’s bugging me. So that’s why this episode coming up in a couple of weeks has me excited – like I said, I’m still doing the pre-production work and have a lot to put together, but the material I’ve written already is some of the best I’ve done for this podcast to date.
Something I’m struggling with at the moment is a lack of time, though. I’ve finished Gone, but haven’t picked a new book to read yet – so while I have plans for an episode or two in between Gone and the next book, I don’t know how all of that will work out yet. If I sit down and think about it, I likely have a lot of time to puzzle it out. I definitely want something planned to release so I don’t get caught with several weeks without a new episode again.
I’ve got a few notes and ideas for the next book and how to cover it a bit differently. Some of that will go into the final chapters of Gone; but for the most part you won’t see a change until the start of the next book.
Thanks for reading / listening. Let me know if you are listening to the podcast!
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