In my mind, I had some kind of vision of a cartoon-y train to use as a picture for this post, but alas, it was not meant to be.
For the past…I don’t know…30 days? I’ve been holding steady with my weight. I went up, but have come back down. Currently I don’t know my status, because I don’t have a scale handy. You see, I’m in the process of moving so things are all over the place. One of those things is the scale. Anyway, this is all related. Oh, and a warning, this post is going to be more of a ramble than something I’ve actually thought and planned out.
Early on in the moving process we decided that we would pack away things like dishes, cooking utensils, give away some pots and pans, etc. Essentially means that we are currently unable to actually cook anything at home. As a result we are eating out a lot. Being in a small town at the moment, our options are rather limited. It’s a little stressful at times, too. So since February something or other I haven’t even bothered logging anything other than my daily weight.
I’m trying to keep some rough estimates in my head for when I eat, so that I don’t over-indulge, but for the most part I’m not worrying about it. Unfortunately this is probably going to have the side effect of setting me back even further than I’ve already done. Still, I would rather take the trade-off of not worrying about my current food intake vs. reducing some stress around a big move.
I was doing some thinking and I want to set some different goals. My weight used to be my primary goal, and was a measure of success. I don’t think that’s cutting it, for me though. There’s got to be a reason why I keep going back and forth with logging, not logging, juggling my calorie limits and “do I eat back calories or not?”, and so forth. And I think that putting too much attention on my weight is one of the leading factors.
So my goal for the rest of the Spring and Summer is to set a new goal. Haha. I have to do some thinking, but I need to set a goal that is measurable and attainable. I will still have a weight number in mind, but that’s secondary. Some of the things I have kicking around in my head include going back down shirt / pant sizes, improving my softball game, and so on. What I need is a solid plan instead of a loose ramble.
Every now and then I feel like I need to stop and take a break from constant food logging. Usually it’s for a short period – a week, maybe a few days – and then I get back on track, and I either maintain my weight or gain 1 or two pounds.
Unfortunately I recently took an extended break from food logging. My last full entry seems to be Friday February 9th – and even then, I’m not sure that it’s really complete. It looks like the 8th was really the last complete day. Since then I’ve maybe added one or two things, but for all intents & purposes, I’ve basically taken an entire month off. And now I’m here to tell you that there are consequences:
On February 8th I weighed 262.3 pounds; as I write this (Monday March 5) my weight is 269.4 pounds. An increase of 7.1 pounds. I may not have done any tracking, but I know that not doing so allowed me to be irresponsible with my eating. I worked from home a lot in that time period, and didn’t think twice about getting up and grabbing a snack. I almost sank back into this behaviour this morning, in fact; I was about to grab some chips and poured them into a bowl without measuring the portion size. I stopped and remembered that I should be logging everything and promptly measured out 50g.
What I realized in the process though is that when I’m not logging for an extended period of time, I’m a bit careless. I don’t think too much about what I’m eating. When I’m not logging for a day or two, I usually still measure things out and stick with proper portion sizes. When left unchecked, I get lazy.
This past weekend I picked up a Samsung Gear S3 (Frontier edition, if you were that curious). I already had the fitness aspects covered off with the FitBit Charge 2, but now I’ve added some productivity options as well. I think the fitness features are just as robust an option as FitBit’s, just “different”. Apparently connecting MyFitnessPal to my Gear S3 also gave me a year’s premium membership, for free. So, I’m using this as a kicking-off point to restart my fitness journey.
I reset my goals in MyFitnessPal, to show losing 1 pound per week to start. According to the new settings, I should lose 5 pounds by April 2nd. As I go through this process I’m going to take notes on how the premium version of MFP works too, and probably will review that. I have no idea if it’s something I need personally, but you never know.
Wish me luck!
Stealth update: Already down to 268.3. I’m always amazed how quickly I can bounce back when I get back to proper logging.
I’ve got a ton of posts about media coming up, so I thought I’d break things up a little bit with something a bit more personal and leave a little bit of a fitness update. So far, I’m doing fairly well. My original title for this post was “fitness update” but I thought I would expand and talk about my overall ‘wellness’, in general.
The chart to the right is from December 2017; I’m honestly not sure if I shared this on the blog already, but it’s my blog, so too bad! I’m sharing it now. I finished December on a high note; my goal was to lose four pounds and while I didn’t get to that goal exactly, I did make some seriously great progress. As I type this I do remember talking about this a while back so I won’t pound away too long on December, but suffice it to say – I have continued that progress through January, so far.
I started my number tracking on January 2nd, I think mainly because I might not have weight myself for a few days after December 31st. Which is fine. Anyway, I started the month at 261.2; with 4 weeks in the month for tracking I set a goal of losing 1 pound per week, or 257.2 by January 31st. As of today (January 23rd), I’m sitting at 258.2! So about a pound off my goal, with a week still to spare. I’m really proud of that accomplishment. I had some periods this past month with my weight going up, but that was in direct response to A) not tracking my meals, and B) there was one night when I had at least 5 beers, so to expect my weight to NOT go up is just silly.
Apart from weight, I’m also pretty satisfied with how I’m doing. I’d like to be getting out to bootcamp (twice weekly) but I don’t feel terrible if I don’t go. I’m still curling twice a week, and I don’t often drink while I’m there. The club I’m at isn’t very big on the ‘buy for the losing team, then the losing team returns the favour’ that my old club was. Actually, my team doesn’t seem to stick around after games anyway (they live a bit out of town so I understand). So the side effect is I’m not drinking very much beer, which I find is usually the bigger obstacle when it comes to losing weight.
Oh, and also we just got a ton of snow in the last 24 hours – so I did some shoveling that I feel makes up for any missed gym time.
I’m trying to maximize my use of my FitBit Charge 2 (I’ve got a fun post about that coming up in February), and challenged myself to match Vanessa’s own goals on her Apple Watch. It’s no longer about just meeting my daily step goal (though that is still a priority for me), but I turned on my “reminders to move”. Every hour between 10am and 3pm FitBit wants me to get 250 steps. If I haven’t reached my goal with ten minutes to go in the hour, it buzzes at me to remind me to move. Still a work in progress. Days when I work from home are harder to get 250 steps per hour, over 5 hours, than if I were to work in the office.
I don’t focus on this a lot – in general I feel like I am pretty healthy mentally. At the same time, I feel like I shouldn’t ignore it, and when I think about it, a lot of things I do to in my day-to-day life fall under this category of ensuring I stay mentally fit. All of this is over and above simply talking with my wife, which does wonders on its own.
The thing I do most often is listen to Podcasts. And I listen to a lot of podcasts. My work environment right now is somewhat isolated, especially when I work from home (I try to work in the office as much as I can, but weather often dictates this reality). Having podcasts to listen to and interact with provides a sense of community helps keep my mind working, while I’m working. Also fun to listen to while in the car on the hour-long commute.
One podcast I’ve just started listening to is one that started up local to me – it’s a couple of guys from Manitoulin Island that have a show called “Raise The Bar“. It’s essentially an outlet for them to share their own weight loss journey but they also talk about other things in their life. I haven’t reached out to them yet, but I’m thinking about it. What I find interesting is that their podcast style is quite close to another one I listen to – The Benchcast. I am thinking that they base their show off the same influences (I think both are a fan of Joe Rogan’s show…maybe I should check it out as well).
I also try to read as much as I can. I posted my reading list earlier this month – I’m slowly making my way through it. I’m trying to set daily targets and make sure I reach them, but so far it’s not going like I wanted. There are so many other easier distractions out there that make it hard to choose reading. I used to be a voracious reader, and I still have the ability to tear through a book in a matter of days…depending on the book. I’m still working on this one – I think I’m probably going to be marking January as a “fail” in terms of how much reading I’ve done, but I’m not quitting on it and I plan on improving this in February.
I maintain a daily journal (specifically, I use the “Bullet Journal” method) too. Mostly, its purpose is to make sure I don’t forget anything and it’s mainly a to-do list. But I also write down stray observations, other notes etc. of what happened during a day. I find it more useful than dumping things into an electronic database.
I thought maybe I’d have more categories to write in, but I guess those are the two major categories. I think I’m doing great overall. I could be doing better, but so could everyone; no one is perfect 100% of the time. I know what I’d like to focus on to be better, so I’m not going to worry too much about what’s already working. It’s still important to me to recognize what I’m doing right, so that stuff doesn’t start to slide.
Any suggestions on finding time to read? What do you do to carve out reading time?
Of all the ways you could describe 2017, the best and most accurate way would be to say that it was a year on Earth. I think that many other people seem to have been mostly negatively affected during the course of 2017, but for me it wasn’t anything special; nothing terrible, nothing overly fantastic either. It was a year.
I expect much of the same for 2018, to be honest. So that’s why I want to do something different. Unfortunately my plan so far doesn’t extend much further than that. I have a list of things I want to do, things to try, but beyond that I don’t have anything too specific that I want to work on.
I’ve had serious thoughts of stopping both this and my music blog; however I think I’m going to keep going. It turns out that I enjoy the outlet for writing, even if some days (or weeks) it feels like I have nothing worthwhile to provide to the Internet.
It definitely helps to know if someone out there is reading, so please reach out and say hello. If your comments mistakenly get flagged as spam let me know! Sometimes it’s hard to differentiate between real comments and spam comments. I tend to trust WordPress when it tells me something is spam.
Anyway, my primary goal for 2018 is unchanging: managing my weight. That part I’ve got down pretty well so far; in December my goal was to go from 264.8 to 260.8; my final weigh-in was 262.10, and I averaged 261.2 over 31 days. So overall I’m pretty happy!
My goal is to drop another 2-4 pounds this month so I am fairly certain I’ll end the month under 260.
Beyond that, I will make an effort to write some more. Some of my writing won’t be making it onto the blog, but that’s OK. I’m tracking a few things here and there on my own, so it’s not necessary to show the Internet that “YES, SEE, I DID WRITE TODAY!”.
On a completely unrelated note, I decided on a whim this afternoon to listen to The Band’s Greatest Hits; I haven’t listened to their stuff in a long time. If you haven’t ever listened to The Band before, or like me it’s been a while, do yourself a favour and listen.
Pictured above is the set up I used to set up my monthly pages for December 2017 in my Bullet Journal. If you’re not familiar with the concept of Bullet Journals, you probably haven’t been to the notebook section of your local book store chain recently; in that case, have a look at the “official” website for this popular system. I’ll wait for you to come back.
The System in a Nutshell
Up to speed? In case you didn’t read it, the short version is that the Bullet Journal is an analog system designed to allow for rapid logging and tracking of virtually anything you want. It was developed by Ryder Carroll but since its inception has taken on a life of its own.
The great thing about Bullet Journal is its flexibility. You can essentially use any notebook you like – and any size you like – to make the system work for you. The pieces in between the pages can be flexible as well, using what works for you from the main system and ditching what doesn’t.
For some people this is a point of contention and has led to people slapping the “bullet journal” label on any hand-written notebook / journal, straying from the “pure” Bullet Journal experience.
I understand where they’re coming from, but really…if it works for you, don’t listen to the naysayers.
How it works for me
I use a pretty loose implementation of the “OG” system. I have a monthly layout where I put all important things for the month, and then from there I write things daily and use the space as needed. Lately I’ve been adding more “thoughts” (probably what you’d call rapid logging) under each day.
Ultimately what this is REALLY doing for me is feeding my addiction to buying pens and notebooks. I haven’t found the perfect notebook yet, and there’s no such thing as a perfect pen. They’re all great. I just can’t use them all at once.
But I find that it does keep me better organized. When I write things down, I tend to remember them better. I know that if I don’t put an item on a ‘to do’ list for the day, it sometimes doesn’t get done. So writing things down makes it easier to commit to memory.
Other than that, I also appreciate that it gives me time to sit and figure out things I need to do, things I’ve accomplished, and so forth. It’s a great tool for that, as one of the notions of the “BuJo” system is to review each month and each year.
I’ve started tracking some daily habits I want to do, and got really excited when I hit 5/5 for the first time (I’ve got max 4/5 all month so far), and I think if I wasn’t deliberately tracking these habits I might not have even taken notice of it.
So check it out – pull out a cheap dollar store notebook and give it a try. It’s fun!
When I last wrote about my weight loss goals, I was trying something new: “flexing” my calories for the week, in an attempt to give myself fewer calories during the week and more on the weekend. Well, that didn’t work out exactly as planned.
I’ve reverted to just focusing on my daily number. The short reason is that it was a pain in the butt to manually track everything. Actually, that’s also the long reason. Anyway, the point I’m making now is that going back to basics and tracking my daily numbers still works. And since I’m making sure I am active every day, I’m not at all worried about going over my daily goal a little bit.
But enough writing – how about some friendly charts?
I’ll quickly walk you through what you’re looking at here. In the first chart, that’s my scale results since October 27th. I think what it’s saying is that I’m currently on track with my goal weight, but I have some work to do.
The second chart are my FitBit steps for the past 28 days. That’s how I’m staying active. Most weeks I reach my step goal (10,205 currently – I may need to alter it) almost every day. This is helping to make sure my NET calories are a reasonable difference from my daily goal. I try my best not to eat back anything.
And the third chart are my net calories. You can see there are some missing days, as well as some really low ones. I missed a couple of entries, and not all of them are complete. But with the exception of one day there – I’m well below 2000 net calories.
So things are going well. I could be doing better, but I could easily be doing a lot worse. It’s a lot easier to ADD pounds than it is to lose them.
I was turned onto the podcast “The Hilarious World of Depression” (Apple Podcasts, apm podcasts) when Wil Wheaton announced he was going to be a guest on the show – back on September 24th. I wasn’t really interested in the “depression” side of things – mostly I am a big fan of Wil Wheaton and like to hear him speak.
To be brutally honest, the interview wasn’t all that special for me. I’ve heard and read Wheaton’s thoughts on depression and what he deals with on a day-to-day basis – that wasn’t new. But I thought I’d give the show a chance, because the host (John Moe) is charismatic and despite hearing some familiar stories, the conversation was frank, honest, and true to the name of the show, funny.
I’ve been listening constantly since then – Margaret Cho, Neal Brennan, and John Green – and hearing about new people I’d never heard before and hearing about their struggles with depression. I think it’s important to note that despite coming from different backgrounds, their stories are all strikingly similar in terms of how depression affects them and how they cope with it.
I say that it’s important to note this because I think a lot of people suffering from depression feel that they are alone. I don’t know this for a fact, but that seems to be a common thread in all of the stories I read and hear about depression (and surprise, it’s a common thread in THWOD [excellent acronym for a show, by the way]).
It’s also important to note that it got me thinking about myself. Am I experiencing symptoms of depression? Am I depressed? A cursory self-diagnosis says no; but it’s not something I’ve really thought about addressing before. In high school, I think I remember feeling like I was depressed. I don’t think I really was, but with less than 18 years of life experience it can be hard to tell.
The last thing that I want to do with this post is play down the seriousness of depression. We’ve all seen the cause gaining traction in media – I even wrote about the coverage this past year. What I’m trying to do is highlight the fact that it’s important to accept that depression affects a lot of people – often people whom you don’t expect. It’s a silent illness that is hard to diagnose and treat.
I’m glad that I don’t feel like I’m suffering from any form of depression. But I know some people aren’t so lucky. I’m also glad to know about this website through THWOD: Makeitok.org.
I haven’t fully taken the time to look through the website, but it looks like a very comprehensive place full of lots of knowledge about mental illness. I think it’s worth combing through, whether you feel like you need to for yourself, or to find out how to better talk about it with other people who might need help.
I wasn’t sure what to write about today, so I thought I’d go with a popular topic in my grab bag – weight loss. It’s something I struggle with every day, and likely will until I reach my goal (which is a healthy BMI, generally).
I think I got to my lowest and visually best weight three years ago, when I got down to the 240’s for a friend’s wedding. Actually, looking at my old spreadsheets, it looks like I was in the 230’s (at least according to whatever scale I was using) in 2015.
But now I’m in the 260’s, hovering in that range for quite a while. That’s not to say I haven’t made progress though! I ballooned up to the 270’s and in the past year and a half made good progress to come back down to where I am now. The thing is, it’s slow progress, and I’m not seeing the results I’d like (I can tell that two years ago, I was a lot thinner looking in the face, for example).
And I’ve tried several things. Most recently I tried looking at my calorie count weekly. Since MyFitnessPal makes this somewhat difficult, I made myself crazy trying to get Tasker & FitBit to give me daily notifications; once I got it working it was great. But I found that I wasn’t really paying much notice to it.
So I took a break; I’m back at tracking my calories now. I saw a post on reddit.com/r/loseit that suggested a hybrid of calorie tracking – use a higher daily limit on the weekends than the weekdays. Essentially it’s the same as tracking weekly, but I know that I only have so many calories to use during the week. I haven’t been 100% successful in implementing this yet, mostly because I haven’t figured out how many calories I want to restrict myself to on weekdays.
But the other thing that I thought of on my own was to use MFP’s great “Quick Add Calories” tool to my advantage. I figure that I should be tracking daily – it’s the best way to keep myself accountable. And I recognize that sometimes, I do go over my goal, and that’s OK. What I need to do in order to counter this is to make sure I don’t keep going over my goal every day.
To that end, I’m trying something new this week: adding the calories I overeat back to my log the next day as a “Quick Add” entry. So Tuesday I went over by 72 calories, and I added it to m Wednesday totals. Wednesday, I went over by 392 (320 + 72). Oops. OK, so I’ll add 392 to today (Thursday). My goal today is 1568, effectively.
I’m also trying not to eat back exercise calories. I’m hoping that this works to my advantage, because it also means despite going over my calorie goals, I technically still had room left to eat more. We’ll see how it works! I hope I’m explaining myself clearly enough too, by the way.
So far, so good though – I started the week at 265.9, and weighed in this morning at 263.7! I’m doing a daily weigh-in and taking the weekly average though, because weight can fluctuate so much. Still, I take this as a success.
You’ll remember at the beginning of September, we adopted Bailey. I keep calling her a 12-month old puppy, though now I think it’s fair to say she’s 13 months. So far, we’ve had many ups and downs with her; training is proving to be quite difficult sometimes. With some other things though, we are seeing a lot of positive progression, and I think it’s fair to say there’s more “ups” than downs.
I think one of the biggest problems we are having right now is her general re-activeness toward…everything. Particularly when she’s on a leash, Bailey is very aggressive toward other dogs. I did some basic research and the general consensus in most cases is that she feels extra threatened by the other dogs (and sometimes, people) while she’s on a leash, because she’s restrained. So she growls, barks, does whatever she can to keep the other dog away. Since in her mind it works, she keeps doing it.
I found a 3-step guide that I think will work. The trouble is that Bailey seems to have Superman-quality vision, and it’s hard to practice this stuff in a planned manner. She just needs work. Luckily, beyond this 3-step guide, there seem to be plenty of other resources online for leash-reactive behaviour.
Unfortunately there’s not so much information about when your dog gets mad at other cars, inside the car. I think the reason behind it is similar to why she gets mad on the leash; she feels threatened by the oncoming cars, which is then made worse by the fact that she feels restrained being in the vehicle. We wouldn’t care so much, except that she takes to biting at the window and vinyl in the car. Oops.
Our solution to this for now is a restraint that buckles into the seat belt and hooks onto her harness. She can still move around, but ultimately I’d like for her to not get crazy mad at oncoming vehicles. Our priority would be the leash training though – it’s slightly embarrassing when she lunges at other dogs or people and makes us look like we don’t know how to train our dog. That is definitely something I want to avoid.
Well, August was certainly a busy month. I didn’t get to all of the comic books that I meant to write about. I’m still going to read them, and put reviews up, but I really dropped the ball. In fact, over the entire summer, I feel like I’ve dropped the ball with the consistent posting. So timing things with everyone going back to school, I’m getting back to consistency.
This past Labour Day weekend, we made a last minute decision to adopt a new puppy. You’ll remember back in April we lost our dog Hank; it was hard going through these last few months without little feet following behind us, and we grew used to a quieter house (sort of).
Enter Bailey: a 1-year-old puppy who has loads of energy. All we knew about her was that she was a beagle mix, and her vet records were kept up to date. We’re not sure what she’s mixed with, but based on observation we think she’s part boxer.
We’re both learning – for Vanessa and I, we’ve learned that she still needs a lot of training and learning about her personality. Bailey is learning the same about our particular life rhythms.
One thing is for certain – she’s not going anywhere. She’s super cute, and despite needing some additional training, we know that we’re going to get along fine. I know that I certainly can’t complain, especially when I’m going to hit my FitBit step goal with no problems two days in a row.
I can proudly say that she’s only destroyed objects of minimal importance so far – and we take responsibility for leaving her on her own for too long. Other than that, she isn’t doing too bad.
I look forward to writing more about her, but for now, enjoy another picture of her sleeping.
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